And So It Ended: Junior Year

Thursday marks the last day of classes for my junior year in college. This year was nothing like I thought it would be. It has had some of my happiest moments as well as some of my lowest.

I'm so happy to have gotten to make new friends. Breaking out of my shell and introducing myself to different friend groups has always been a challenge for me, but the people I have met and the friends I have made are completely worth it. I'm so lucky to have met so many wonderful people who genuinely care about me and I can't wait to see them next year. I even have plans to see some over the summer.



Conversely, I am so sad to have had some really close friends walk out of my life. Junior year was hard in a lot of ways, but this was one of the bigger ones. I'm sure to miss them from time to time, and I also hope that my senior year can be a fresh start for all of us. Losing friends and growing apart is a huge part of life, and I'm just glad that I've been able to grow closer to others in the process.

Academically, this year challenged me. A lot. First semester I gave my all and ended up with just satisfactory grades. Second semester was full of art projects, some of which truly challenged (and frustrated me).

Not being on the cheer team anymore was an added challenge. I love my freedom, and will never regret my decision to walk away, but the loss of 20 automatic friends was hard. But not as hard as giving all of my free time and energy to Fordham Cheer.

Professionally, I had a few great internships and opportunities but I still don't know what I want to do with my life. I think I'm okay with it. Life has a funny way of working out for me and I'm excited to see what my senior year holds for me.

[caption id="attachment_1052" align="aligncenter" width="392"] This is me around the end of Junior year....of high school. so much has changed...and so much hasn't.[/caption]

In terms of being a senior in college, I have mixed feelings. For one, how did that happen? How can I possibly be a senior in college when I can so clearly remember being a senior in high school? Senior year is no doubt the most fun and exciting, but I'm not sure I'm mentally prepared for people to start asking me what I'm doing. Because honestly, I ask myself the same question every day with no real answer yet.

I am super excited to turn 21 in 173 days (otherwise known as an eternity) and to have an apartment to decorate and hang out in without constantly being afraid of getting written up.

[caption id="attachment_1053" align="aligncenter" width="392"] Heading into Senior Year together![/caption]

This is the first year I've been sad to leave school. I can't wait for a break and to be at home and to see Andrew more than once a month, but I'm also excited for what's in store next year. :)