Letting Go

Last fall was a really tough semester for me for a lot of reasons.  At the top of the list, not only did I walk away from the cheerleading team, but I lost a lot of friends from that team as well.  There were friends who I simply lost touch with because our schedules were so different, and there was a falling out with one of my closest friends.

In a way, losing this friend was like breaking up with someone.  I cried a lot right after.  I called my mom a lot, too.  I felt awful whenever I had to see her around and it hurt when I knew she was hanging out with mutual friends and I was left out.

Slowly, though, I started to get over it.  I literally forced myself to start making friends.  It was hard.  I am not an outgoing type, but I would make myself make plans with friends and branch out to people.  And honestly, I’m glad I did.  Its still not easy to put myself out there but the more I do, the less miserable I feel.

Another thing I really learned was how to just let go.  Whenever I would feel left out or like I was being forgotten and ignored, I just let it go.  I think of how hanging out with them wouldn’t be that great anyway, since we aren’t as close.  And then I remember how happy I am without them and with my new friends, and it gets easier.  The more I can just brush off that feeling of being ignored or left out, the more I can move on and make myself happier.

On a side note, since I’ve started branching out, I’ve met so many people who are so different from the other people I had met my first two years here.  Everyone was so….nice. People I had just met really cared about me and wanted to talk to me.  I’m so glad I’m meeting people who are nice and friendly, even if it is a few years late.