Last summer I started taking steps to eliminate my excessive anxiety by simply facing all of my problems head on. Some things have been easier than others. One thing I continually have and issue with is placing myself in uncomfortable social situations.
I have clear memories from the fourth, then the seventh, ninth......grades where I would literally hyperventilate before I needed to meet with teachers. My first year of college was one struggle after another. But slowly, the more I force myself to do things the less excruciating they become.
Today my boss emailed me, asking me to cover a press event for her. I literally stared at the email for 30 minutes before I answered. I texted Andrew. And my mom. And before I could change my mind I said I'd go.
For the rest of the day I was so nervous. I felt a creeping tightness in my back and shoulders and a sickening nausea. All I could think the whole subway ride there was "I'm so nervous. I'm so nervous."
But them I got there. And I went into the event. And I was okay. I shook hands and met people. I tried to pretend I was outgoing. I even started a conversation on my own.
It was a major struggle--convincing myself to go there. But I made it and I'm just so proud of myself for doing something so out of my comfort zone.
One small step for man, one giant leap for Kelsey.
